Dumping My Dream Girl
October 17, 2022
My biggest regret in life is loving women. Romantic love is a delusion mostly
I am proud of a dream I recently had.
I was young again and single. My beautiful girlfriend and I were shopping. I suggested we go back to my apartment. I was feeling loving and wanted to hang out and cuddle. Just be happy together. Sex wasn't an issue.
Shortly after arriving, she says she has to leave.
Thwarted in love. Again.
In the dream, I press her for an explanation. She doesn't have one.
She doesn't want to be with me. I grant her wish.
I wake up pleased by my subconscious bravado.
In one instance, a woman who looked like Embeth (above) said she found me "repulsive." If ever there was a cue to tell a woman to f**k off and get out, this was it. Women respect rejection because it confirms their opinion of themselves.
Instead, I ignored the comment and patiently persevered. We ended up living together for almost five years. I could fill another book (in addition to "A Long Way to Go for a Date") with what I endured. Obviously, I was immature and largely responsible for my fate.
I'm 72 now and no longer a player. I've been happily married for 21 years. I only wish I had awakened from this dream sooner.
Men have been programmed to believe that sex and "love" are the key to happiness. We need a woman's love to develop as men. We need to sexually satisfy a woman to prove our masculinity.
We are programmed to seek feminine approval when our own approval is all that matters.
Anyway, I've been there, done that. I have satisfied a few women countless times and I have been satisfied as well. I've matured in the prescribed way. I discovered the lie by living it.
But I wish I had found a shortcut and downgraded the role of women and sex to its real level of importance, say from 75% to 25%.
I wish I hadn't loved them. Looking back, none was worth it. I have wasted half my life.
The satanist media has given young women a delusional sense of entitlement. Our mental programmers present them as demi-gods.
Women are intended to be helpmates, not soul mates.
The nuclear family is the foundation of civilization. That's why the Masonic Jewish (Satanic) central bankers are destroying it.
Am I bitter? Yes. I am bitter for all the ways my culture has lied to me. Here, I blame Illuminist brainwashing that elevates sexual "relationships" to the negation of everything else. And I blame myself for falling for this garbage.
The average man spends 75% of his energy on it. It's a great motivator for many men. And yes, I realize it's hormonal.
Perhaps the real takeaway is this: Don't look for someone to believe in you.